i love hearing your waves, i love seeing the sky,i love feeling wind,i love you, beach.

hurts.

2012-02-12T14:54:00.001+08:00

Remember how we used to sing this every time we go to a KTV with merlyn,sharlene and gera~~

Anyway, i'm seriously having diarrhea... and if it still stays this way i will go consult a doctor tomorrow~ ugh!! Now that I'm so hungry but i got no appetite to eat -_-

back to work + inki.

2012-02-11T21:19:00.003+08:00

i just don't understand why you can.......
i just don't get it why you can.....
i just don't know why you can...

omg!!! i have no idea what i have to do for ComDA :<

I'm like lost with everything !!! ughhhhhhhh....

20th

2012-02-05T16:33:00.001+08:00

Last night i had the best day of my life with people i love that completed my life, i hope you all will continue to walk with me through my next, and next next and next next next chapter of my life :) i don't know how to express how much i love you all, but i believe you all already know. hurhur *blush*

Thank you Gera, Lynn,Merlyn,Twinny,Shanie,Sher and Weiwei for the surprises and gifts you guys bought for me, i simply love the awfully chocolate cake!! (expecting sharlene to be there though. i can't wait to see the card you made for me!^^)

Thank you to others who sent me messages and wishes :) Appreciated so much, really! If i can, i will hug each and everyone of you all :> muax!

Again, as much as i hated it, i had to move on to my twenties already, so many bad and good things had passed by me through my 20 years of my life, to make me a stronger and more independent girl till today, i never regret living a life like this, because if i did, i will have miss out all the people i love right now and those in the past. If it wasn't you all, i wouldn't be here today :)

Thank you mummy, because it was you who brought me to this world to meet everyone i love, i will continue to be a good girl in your eyes and be as obedient as i can. Thank you for the yummy meesua you cooked for me :) Love you so much!

It's like a dream come true, having a party on a yacht

The girls are so thoughtful and they really know me so well, how can they read my mind? hahahaha <3

(omg, back to P3 and comDa...)

spoilt mood ugh!

bored.

2012-02-03T23:14:00.001+08:00

This was taken years ago when i'm still a "kid" in changkat changi secondary school, said to be the best school in Simei~ LOL! DUH!!! thats the only school there!! Ok i'm so lame...

This was taken by Sheeming, miss her luh :>

I feel like dancing and running again~

지독하게

2012-02-02T22:47:00.002+08:00

내 마음을 보여줄게 많지만

어떻게 시작을 해야 할지

괜시리 급한 마음뿐이야

서툴러 보여도 내 고백을 받아줄래

left.

2012-02-02T01:50:00.000+08:00

Must be what you did hurt her so badly that she is giving up on you.

i'm so busy.

Aquarius.

2012-02-01T02:30:00.002+08:00

So fast,....it's already 1st Feb. hmmmm....

I was reading her blog, and every posts hurt me quite badly but nevertheless, there was this one post that kills all the jealousy thoughts i had in her. I saw all the efforts she had done and obviously i cannot say a word about it, in fact i'm really happy for her and now that i know about her departure, it's kinda saddening :<

P3 and ComdA started at the same time, i wonder if i can pull through this 2 months without any suffering, i doubt so TT

Seriously i really got more things to write here but i'm like multi-tasking, doing 2 modules' research of different topics at the same timing, I'm confused right now ~ Not even sure if i'm at the right track.

Charms.

2012-01-30T23:52:00.003+08:00

School started, so is all the stress pouring into my brain.

So hard to explain myself, so hard to please everyone around me, but luckily there are friends who love me and know me well. Thank you for that <3 You all are the one who make me stronger when i'm feeling weak and the one who always pull me up when i'm about to fall. If it wasn't you all, i won't be here till today~

Severely

2012-01-27T13:55:00.001+08:00

omg i need to get out of my house now to get something very important!! haha!~

Anyway happy to see the new teaser of the boys!^^

Sadly i won't have a nephew who will have the same birthday with me anymore :(

But good thing is, he will be born tomorrow!! cannot wait to see him!! hurhur^^

okay, waiting for my phone to charge and out i goooooo~

(when i saw that picture,it really breaks my heart, so weak, so weak...)

that story was left untold.

2012-01-25T21:10:00.002+08:00

knowing so much is not a good thing but knowing these much made me learn something.

i'm feeling a little emotional because of the sad story i heard few days ago~ So now each time people said something or do something, i get a little bit sensitive. I will want to cry for the both of them,... omg.. i don't know what i'm saying~ haiz.. Just tell me this is true....

i miss people i missed.

CNY

2012-01-25T05:27:00.002+08:00

Just sent Gera and Lynn off to HongKong! Hope both of them have a great time there !! While the rest of us here in the airport waiting for the first bus to go home~ hehe~

Thank you all of you here being with me all the time~

And not forgetting the fun time i had today at Mande's and Shermaine's place, where i got to see all my beloved girls and laughing my lungs out :) I gambled and i won some money! hehe~ happy girl!^^

love it all afterall

2012-01-19T01:38:00.001+08:00

Had so much fun that day during PLAY!FTISLAND in Singapore! Unforgettable night <3
hmmm but the fact about the next day, was quite sad because... i shan't mention anymore because something good happen today :) hehe alright I'm gonna go to my bed now! Everyone sleep well~

PLAY!FTISLAND Concert in Malaysia! 2012

2012-01-15T11:28:00.001+08:00

Note : people who banned kpop in their life, do not, i repeat, do not read this post! ^^

Im back to this sunny island just few hours ago~ Had so much fun with Jam and it was really a good experience trip! PLAY!FTISLAND Concert in Malaysia!

didn't want to take any pictures, just want to purely enjoy it but then, i want to snap some and keep it for memories but who knows, my camera dropped too many times so cannot auto focus anymore :<

Seung really bad to me when he was on stage even though i was right in front of him but nevertheless, i passed a gift to him and he gave me his widest smile ever :)

alright gonna get ready now and heading out to... PLAY!FTISLAND Concert in Singapore! wooohoooo~~~~

Fusionopolis

2012-01-14T02:44:00.000+08:00

Goodbye Singapore.

I hope i will enjoy~

I wanna write a long letter before i leave but i just couldn't come out with a time to write it, don't worry i will be back safe and sound. If something really happen to me, please know that i love everyone who ever makes my life so amazing and passing by my life and be someone so special to me :) hehe. love you guys!

till then, see ya!

-

2012-01-10T02:37:00.001+08:00

my Leader JJ for P2~ ji swag^^

for 3 days, i had been dreaming the same things :( worry worry worry.

omg nothing to post. omg. brb

long journey~

2012-01-08T00:06:00.000+08:00

There goes my mum again,maybe she is right, i got an evil heart and that i will rot one day and become more and more ugly. Maybe because i'm not nice to the people around me.

Anyway, please still let it be nice on the 14 jan~ thats all i'm asking for now~~

having a bit of foul mood now :<

drag

2012-01-06T14:31:00.002+08:00

why am i always one step behind others?

The things i want to do, i always drag and when i drag... others took one step ahead of me.
pretty sad and disappointed. Probably because no one there to motivate me?

2012.

2012-01-03T23:32:00.001+08:00

Finally, its 2012.

Too many things happened during the last few months of 2011 that i thought i may not be able to pull through to 2012 but i made it :)

My resolution for this year, pretty simple :)
... please let me have what i want, please?

Thank you everyone! ^^

last.

2011-12-29T01:21:00.001+08:00

(credit:tumblr)

i felt so much love today, thank you~

Anyway i had come up with my final decision and there is no way I'm gonna turn back... I hope everything gonna go well, please go well ok :(
Probably this will be my last time... probably...

:)

2011-12-28T02:07:00.002+08:00

(credit:tumblr)

I always meet the nicest people on earth, this time round, i met my boss, Darrell~! He is the best boss i had:)Still I'm not satisfy that i made a mistake during my work just now :<

Yesterday i met up with my pretty Sheeming, i always love talking to her :) I learnt a lot of things from her! omg, I'm missing her now! I also love my 2 angels who are always there for me, Twinny and Sher <3 Girls, i need to tell you all how much i love you, but words just cannot describe it, so i will use actions to proof it alright ?! teehee, this is just so random.

I'm blessed with lovely people around me, thank you for being there :)

I'm supposed to sleep, but i don't feel like sleeping.hmmmm....

Merry Christmas ☃

2011-12-25T14:04:00.002+08:00

Hey whoever is here, Merry Christmas to you ^^

An early celebration for Christmas at Joan's house! Unlike other people who are having turkey ham and western kind of meal, we had Steamboat at the corridor!! hahaha!

3 aunties(J,R and me) met up to do groceries shopping and prepared all the food while cx and angela set up the christmas tree in the house :) All done, and waiting for the rest to come! Hooray and xm brought the log cake!!

We spent the whole night reading horoscopes(one of the best thing i love doing)/bloodtypes and playing truth ~~or dare~~! It was fun and i got to know more about one another.

Alright look at the photos below!⇟↯

Our Santa Claus!! Brownie super dao like his owner(joan)
BTH!! hahahaha!!

Yummy Steamboat with so many seafood!! ^^

Thank you R and J who prepared a gift for each and everyone of us !! ♥♡♥

Secret Santa is about to begin... hurhur~ ^^

Each of us got a gift from out secret santa :)

Xiumei is my secret santa of the year! hurhur~^^

Thank you Xiumei!

And I'm J's secret santa !!

Hope my sweetest stallbelli loves the gifts i got for her ☺

Log Cake so yummy :)

(credit: Joan's)

Hope everyone enjoy this festive season:)

Once again,

Merry Merry Christmas !!

✚✙✚

Last but not least,seung's solo in Japan concert was amazingly touching ><
I miss him so muchhhhhhhh~~

12 days of Christmas.

2011-12-21T01:48:00.001+08:00

I'm in my X'mas mood already!!

Im so vexed about this January!! FTisland is coming to our sunny island and they gonna have fan sign!! I'm thinking what i should say to seungseung this time TT

ok cool, I'm off.

anyway,

weheartit.com/plentyredroses

(gonna use it when I'm free~ hehe, nice and inspiring website!)

.

2011-12-19T23:32:00.001+08:00

Sometimes i wonder what is she thinking that she can hurt me so deeply with all her words coming out from her mouth. It was so hurtful that i don't know what i can do to comfort my own feelings. You said that i have an evil heart, just because i had some jealousy in me? Is that wrong? You, really hurts me :(
I hope i have all the things you want and you can have it all back, so that you won't say i owe you anymore.

porridge.

2011-12-15T00:08:00.003+08:00

(credit : tumblr)

thank you thank you !

xoxo

im forever tumblr-ing~~

http://plentyredroses.tumblr.com

peck

2011-12-10T11:40:00.001+08:00

what a happy day :)

its amazing how i can just fall asleep and not care about what the world is thinking~

dark.

2011-12-07T02:16:00.001+08:00

Have you ever feel this way like how i did?

its been a year plus, someone who brought me away from the darkness...

actually pushes me back in.

i dont know how i should feel about this.

tell me how?

friends.

2011-12-05T23:42:00.001+08:00

my girls are so adorable!! ^^
Thank you rowrow and joan babies<3
(i dont know why the video cannot be watch over here)

anyway i really want to thank Twinny so much! She really meant alot to me and i never want to lose her as my closetfriend/twinny/soulmate! She is my everything <3

and to this girl M, i hope baby girl you are doing good and be strong, you know we are all here for you. Please don't be silly to think that no one wants you, because we want you and we love you!

SM, you silly girl and not think too much alright? i love you every single minutes and seconds and i love your boyf too la, please tell him for me! haha.

S is leaving again!!! TT leaving me, i hope she will have fun in US and miss me everyday! hurhur! i'm so gonna meet her before she fly off in another 4 more days. Please make yourself free babey!

I treasure all my friends because they always never fail to make me smile and be who i am when i'm with them. I'm blessed that i met nice people in my life. I dont have to mention any names because you know who you are :)

I'm so random,as always. hehe <3

...

2011-12-05T19:17:00.001+08:00

at times like this, i feel lost.
Everyone only knows how to see the surface of everthing.
We should all look deeper.
Because, thats the only way to find out the real feelings of a person.

who?

2011-11-30T23:22:00.001+08:00

(credit:tumblr.)

My idea room:)

I won't tell you how much i miss you, how much i like you,how much i love you.
my heart knows it all, thats all it matters.

half an hour more, 1st dec will be approaching us. Hope for a good one. please?

you know, i really don't know what i want.

it's just me.

2011-11-30T01:11:00.001+08:00

i always hurt the people i care most.

bought.

2011-11-25T09:59:00.001+08:00

This may be the first and last concert i will want to attend(maybe not). Hmm, probably not everyone knows about the reason behind all these things. Maybe then again, i may not want to stop supporting them, i don't find it wrong to support them in my own ways. yup and i don't wish anyone will stop me.

you guys just won't understand why...

go.

2011-11-24T00:26:00.001+08:00

(credit:tumblr)

...

2011-11-23T00:04:00.001+08:00

I just don't wish to give any burdens to people who I love.

Promise, i will never tell you anything anymore even if you beg me one day,never.

To you, I'm disappointed. But I'm not gonna tell you why.Hahahahhaha!

Bye

xoxo

2011-11-21T13:49:00.001+08:00

HAHAHAHA

Thank you baby row for that sweet note and.. :)

hope my girl will be fine because she deserve something better than this~

x

2011-11-21T07:03:00.001+08:00

is it wrong? am i wrong?

new module with choy again~
agony.

^^

2011-11-20T05:06:00.001+08:00

this is how i looked like now...

at starbuck... Row struggling with codes... Weiwei sleeping..... me blogging....

this is my zoey princess (:

hehe!~

2011-11-19T13:40:00.001+08:00

my baby girl and weiwei :)

tore.

2011-11-15T01:28:00.001+08:00

Enjoy life today, yesterday is gone and tomorrow may never come...

...

2011-11-14T23:41:00.000+08:00

I don't want to open up to anyone anymore because Love is such a silly thing we would ever have in life.

why will i like you?

2011-11-12T17:33:00.001+08:00

Hoping that everything can get out of my chest. I don't like what i'm feeling now. I'm stressed and tired enough. Each time when i'm feeling that way, i would come here and just type out somethings, even though it may be irrelevant. I'm seriously in debts right now. i don't know what i can do. I'm suppose to finish up my work but i'm again, procrastinating. while typing this, i'm actually thinking of ideas.

You will never know what i'm thinking even if the whole world knew about it, you will probably be the last i'm gonna tell you because right now i can't and i won't. This feelings just felt so silly, this is not my first time anyway. i hope everyone don't make weird guesses and assuming things, because what you think may not be what's on my mind.

cannot make up my mind.

wanna stay like this forever, alone.

hmmm, do you know what i meant? omg... typing and thinking always different.

giraffe.

2011-11-12T04:01:00.001+08:00

why do i always have no mood for work?

ok actually i do have but right now i'm not.

Anyway i'm sad i didn't manage to get it because i desperately need it... haizzz.

빼빼로데이~

2011-11-11T03:06:00.001+08:00

HAPPY 빼빼로데이 EVERYONE THAT I LOVE!!!

PLEASE KNOW WHO YOU ARE BECAUSE I GOT SO MANY OF YOU TO NAME!

thank you for being in my life and please continue to stay in my heart alright? hehe :)

at the airport now with Joan,this place made me missed everything. booooo~

my baby zo zo~

2011-11-10T15:51:00.001+08:00

okay back to work everyone.

PS : don't need you to do all this...

more here~

bye 3gs.

2011-11-09T23:50:00.002+08:00

i hope nobody think otherwise. i'm sick of explaining.

my phone died, getting ready for his funeral. pretty sad. what to do?

not happy ahhhhh.... cause i saw.

packed.

2011-11-09T01:28:00.002+08:00

Everything just died on me. How great? My macbook died, my phone died(i dropped it into the toilet bowl just now in school -_-). I think is a sign for me to focus on my work,which i'm trying to but apparently it kinda of failed because i'm here... haha.

today is a sweet day :)

12R :)

2011-11-08T11:15:00.000+08:00

Snow keeps falling.

My feeling gets stronger.

Express train passes.

By the time this crossing opens,

you will probably not be there.

You will probably not be there...

---------------------------

Distance

2011-11-07T11:18:00.000+08:00

As much as i want to give up on everything that i'm doing now, i can't.

Please tell me i'm happy and not pretending to be.

i'm,... happy(?)

Sometimes i pity who i was when i was in secondary school back then. Nobody knows what i had to face, what i had gone through that no one ever need to go through, thinking about how pity i was, i want to live stronger now, if not it will be a waste that i have work so hard to move forward till today.

rain.

2011-11-06T05:52:00.002+08:00

At aunt's place. Just had prata under a heavy rain with S and R~ It was crazy to walk under such heavy rain to and fro.

big smile to anyone who is reading this :)

oh man... i am missing... seung seung under this rain! shy...

wanna share this nice song ~

(click on "my korea trip 2011" to read if you are interested ^^)

keep believing.

2011-11-05T14:19:00.002+08:00

Promise, after this i will get back to work! i finally had 10 hours of sleep even though in between i woke up a few times.

Anyway, i really don't know what's happening... everyone behaving weirdly around me and all i want is just lead a normal life. If you think i'm here being hypocrite, by all means. I just want a normal life.

please let this month pass slightly slower, 24 more days.

(_0)

2011-11-03T10:40:00.000+08:00

Finally done with submission. Spent the whole night at aunt's house with A,S and C~ phew~~

ok one more assignment, ready?

GO~

^^

2011-10-31T09:36:00.000+08:00

In class now, not listening.

my awesome people up there ⬆ ⬆

working really hard in school now, codes VS jessica(all imd yr2 students)

hmm, error error, forever error. I don't even know what i want to sell....

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9:15pm
this is me, i always do such thing to myself. I love to keep things to myself and i don't care who is doing the right thing or the wrong thing. I don't ask much when something had happened and all i do is swallow down my throat. I don't like people to question me,likewise i don't like questioning others. This thing happens to me all the time, i don't know anymore. Care too much,i don't like, care too little also wrong. Tell me what to do?
sorry G.

Maritime.

2011-10-29T11:49:00.001+08:00

Hmm... look like something is wrong with my camera(dropped/knocked too many times in Korea), every pictures seemed to be pixellated and blur~~~ haiz.zz.z.zzz...z

Anyway had a great day yesterday!^^

Today is a break time for myself, thought i can continue watching my show but Gera's mac isn't working and i dont have password to access Jose's mac. shitz.

Broke.

2011-10-28T00:09:00.001+08:00

(credit : jadelzy.)

I'm growing for you.

i need to stop.

Ok, i'm happy and i'm not complaining, just saying.

Easy way out.

2011-10-27T00:25:00.002+08:00

Day after day
Time pass away
And I just can´t get you off my mind
Nobody knows ... I hide it inside
I keep on searching but I can´t find
The courage to show ...
To letting you know ...
I´ve never felt so much love before
And once again I´m thinking about
Taking the easy way out ...

-if i let you go

----------------

Stop making me feel like a loser. Sometimes i wonder why people have to say those words to hurt me when i already knew. I don't need anyone else to keep on reminding me.

Whatever it is, i need to put on a smile and be happy.

Ugh, i still don't know what i need to do for my 2 new modules.

I'm troubled with ways of gettin' money. I need to work. I'm in debts.

When i'm back, nothing goes right.

booooo.

still, i'm smilin'

Cheerz.

2011-10-24T17:17:00.001+08:00

Only the first day of school and i already giving it a skip. Due to the drastic change of the weather from 5 degree to 29 degree was insane...

You brought me so far here,...

I thought our distance can be describe as "so near yet so far", but the last day in Seoul tells a different story. Thanks for being there and i saw it clearly with my eyes. These were all the memories you gave me.

Like Birds

2011-10-23T01:49:00.000+08:00

Yo! Back here after a long holiday in Seoul~ My soul is still is Seoul~ HAHAH~

You will not believe what had happen over there... I ... ^^ ok, not gonna say it here because here is not a FA kinda of place for me to spazz and i normally keep it to myself and share it with my closer friends~ Anyway, everything was all good till the last part,... I LOST MY RETAINER!! TT Never gonna get it back... My mum sure gonna kill me ~~~

(upload more in future~)

wanna share this song :) Enjoy!!

runnin' around leaving scars.

2011-10-02T22:30:00.000+08:00

Leaving this town was meant to be a secret but look like i cannot keep my own secrets. That's so weird how i can't keep mine but others'.

In the midst of packing my stuffs~ Glad that Twinny is coming over in a few hours time to help me out! ^^

Oh man i'm so gonna miss my awesome people!!!!

Cranky

2011-10-02T02:25:00.001+08:00

Im on my bed and I couldn't sleep. Something wrong with me and I just kept thinking of that one thing. I bet I'm insane and crazy. My mind is controlling me right now and I really don't know what to do and from now on I'm not gonna share with anybody about my life anymore because I'm gonna deal with it myself and don't give others any burden. I have to get rid of that one thing, starting from now.

Doggies~

2011-09-30T03:11:00.001+08:00

(credit : row's fb)

Doggies gathering today! ^^

It wasn't a simple job to take care of a pup, especially when Kino is still so mischievous!

Anyway, i had so much fun with all my awesome people and i didn't really leash kino, it was Kevin who leash him almost the whole day! haha! I'm such a bad owner!!! Nevertheless, Thank you Kevin!

Love Kino ; Nicky : Brownie!

Still at Tampines Mac, 3:10am with Row, Joan and Shaun Teo~ What are we doing?

For us to know, for you to find out.

3:38am

2011-09-29T03:39:00.001+08:00

talking about life.

Whole life talking about life.

Because we got too much life.

HAHAHAH!

Anyway i did lip waxing just now with my girls and i loved it! hurhur~

and planned.

heyhey~

i was watching this show and they said...

"if it's real, you can't walk away.."

this phrase is bugging me since just now.

I can't wait to get out of here because i got too much thoughts and i'm trying to get it out of my mind but it just couldn't. I'm tired and i need to forget. Probably when i'm back, i forget everything... i want to forget and i need to forget.Well, we possibly not gonna meet again.

ROW DID THIS!! AWESOME PEOPLE !! I <3 YOU!

uh uh shiol

2011-09-28T01:08:00.000+08:00

so fast...our uh uh shiol came to an end. Did everyone enjoy? I hope so :)

Love all these awesome people!! ^^

Oh man, don't know when will i ever meet them again!! probably in a month time? :(

is like in 6 more days... super fast hor?

^^

2011-09-24T23:53:00.001+08:00

forever not getting to the point! lol!!! really funny~~

HAHAHAAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH~

and my whatsapp is being spammed by the girls(jadetwinnyshaniesher). like blinking none stop!!!!

never get enough

2011-09-24T11:03:00.001+08:00

(credit : twinny's blog.)

It's good that, friends who didn't meet more than a year can still bond within a second. They are friends who had been through with me during my secondary school life, even though in different age group, class, we gathered often in school just to catch up with one another life. Missed the time when we dance together on the same stage and the preparation behind all the performance,wonder when will there be another chance? Seeing each other grow older, is quite a pleasant thing to do :)

i <3 them!

Anyway, tomorrow is the D-day!

(anyone please click on my nuffnang advert about Outlet! thanks!^^)

2011-09-21T21:52:00.001+08:00

Right now, this moment, i'm effing sad. Nothing can replace this sadness in me now because i know the answer. ok wait, i knew the answer long ago.I'm just gonna pretend i know nothing. i don't want to know anything. ughhhh :(

I just want to bury myself somewhere or get out of this place! booooooo!!!

tomorrow presentation but i have yet to see my slides, jj where are you?

shit i'm trying to sidetrack, but no i can't! #fail.

Anyway had a hair cut today, so short! but hair will grow so it's alright.
ok.

bored.

not ready

2011-09-21T02:10:00.001+08:00

Hate it Hate it Hate it, now that P2 is over, i should be sleeping early right? But... look at the time now TT I cannot bring myself to bed! Darn i should have just look for the girls and chill with them!!

Anyway, P2 is coming to an end!!! Soon, #™© is happening in less than 5 days times~ Gonna plan my schedule properly!~ wink wink~ Right after, i will be out of this sunny island~ everything not ready... feelings not ready, mood not ready, money not ready, all not ready...

P2 over in 4 days time.

2011-09-19T06:34:00.000+08:00

My life had been really tiring and torturing! I didnt get to sleep the whole of yesterday night, stayed at Joan's house, working hard to finish up P2. I really cannot wait for P2 to hurry end and so i can have a good rest. By then, i will be missing Singapore(probably), or missing him? haha~ This is the best time i should make this feeling fade... Knowing that we can never work out so why try out? silly much?

Gonne be real busy right after p2! 23sep gonna meet my dancers, 25 - 27 ....., 2 and 3 oct sher booked me and 4... bye~~~~

i think i will miss him so i will probably put him as my wallpaper... haha!!

stbm~

good morning anyway, it's 6:34am, my sister gonna get up and im gonna sleep in!~~

need her in life.

2011-09-17T00:47:00.004+08:00

Have a safe trip my little girl! You almost made me tear when you went in because the words you said to me :( Thank you so much! So gonna miss you!!!

She is someone special.

hope.

2011-09-16T03:39:00.000+08:00

Another 19 hours.... Sher is also leaving Singapore :(

gonna miss her like crazy too~~~~~

so tired, 3:38am now! currently working really hard for P2 at JJ's house together with Alvin~ But JJ is sleeping soundly now~~~~ I really hope we can make it for our submission on Tuesday... So many things to do, so little time :(

Bon Voyage~

2011-09-14T23:58:00.004+08:00

Have a safe trip, my girls (Kelly, Xinying, Tingting and the rest), we will meet there!

Happy Mooncake Festival with Awesome People :)

2011-09-13T01:16:00.002+08:00

Happy Mooncake Festival! Thank goodness i got to play with lanterns with my awesome people just now !! As much as i had to repeat, i didn't get to eat my "big china" mooncake this year... well people may think i'm over exaggerating.. but i really waited for 1 year.... for 12 sep to come so i can eat it under the moon... yup. Well at least it was all covered up by the event above, so i'm feeling so much better :)

Alright, am gonna sleep soon because presentation tomorrow!!

3 more days, my girls are leaving me... 21 more days to my turn...

souls

2011-09-12T01:04:00.001+08:00

4 more days... Gonna miss my girls;(

A sky full of lighters.

2011-09-11T19:51:00.000+08:00

P2 gonna end in another 1 week plus, sleepless nights at friends' house and all will also come to an end. Despite how much i hate group work and p2, i will definitely miss all the people above in the pictures!! The days we chiong work together and had dinner after a long and stressful day and all the jokes we had together in the senior lab ! I made it sound like my graduation year now, that i'm dedicating a post to all the people i love here. haha. i don't know and don't care how they feel for me but i am sure i love them and i'm gonna miss them so much during holidays!! TT

and to you, i'm speechless, no more chance for you.

and to you, i want to stop this, and only you can help me, so stop. ok?

(maybe you see or maybe you didn't, maybe you should keep it that way.)

and to you, i'm sorry that i neglected you, i want to go back to my old self, i'm trying hard and i believe i will see you soon again...

i believe everything happens for a reason.

uh uh shiol

2011-09-08T02:37:00.001+08:00

wink wink~

I really miss my crazy people in school even though i'm skyping with 2 of my crazy people now! hahaha!!

My life is really amazing after meeting them!! Esp these 2, bth them!! hurhur~~ bth in a good way~

I want to treasure all of them because i know life is short!

Not forgetting my #12Rs that i will be seeing them tomorrow before most of my girls are away to Korea^^ hurhur~~~~~

*smurf hugs*

end here.

2011-09-06T23:50:00.000+08:00

Why am i expecting when i am as good as nothing? These past few days, i'm feeling really empty and bored. Probably because,... I think i know the answer myself. I really don't know if this is a good or bad thing. Why does it seem that it hurt more badly than what i have go through liking someone who don't even know my existence? I have been asking myself why am i feeling so bored theses days, i came out with an answered and that explained everything. I really hate feeling how i'm feeling right now because i thought i will never ever have this same problem again in my life. I was wrong. I can see everything clearly with my own eyes and i know what is going on but why am i lying to myself? Jessica, please stop this ridiculous feeling before you fall deep inside. You are not going anywhere, remember this.

Everyone please don't ask me about anything.

say goodbye.

2011-09-05T22:04:00.002+08:00

I wish that she feel better, i know this pain will never disappear. After reading her post, i teared. How heartbreaking to know that it is happening to her. I hope she can put herself together again and stay strong, we will all be there for her. So hard to see a smile on her face anymore and i believe it will take her sometimes to be crazy with us again :( i know is hard... if you are reading to this, i hope you continue to move on alright baby girl ! i love you!

somebody else.

2011-09-05T17:50:00.000+08:00

(row's blog)

i think i know. i guess i know.

what you are thinking right now is definitely not what's i'm thinking inside.

BORED.

2011-09-04T21:40:00.001+08:00

Is not easy to open my heart, but you just did.

did you? lol

let's smurf

2011-09-04T01:14:00.002+08:00

(pictures above happened on the 1st sep)

skyping with the lady in my blog, that first girl in the picture right now~

hurhur~

anyway....

i hope B is happy up above ~ and that J will cheer up and not feel so sad.

Thank you Daddy and Auntie Jackie~~~^^

I smurf all of you :)

smurf smurf.

not the type.

2011-09-03T13:11:00.004+08:00

It been so long i had this feeling once again... So hard for Jessica to fall for someone and fall out for someone, it probably takes me years to do so(yes it did). This time round i feel that history gonna repeat itself again, so before this thing happen, i really need to have this "bad thinking" to stay this way so when the thing really happen, at least i wont feel that sad... I can feel that he like her and she like him kind of thing? really bad... what was i thinking? i should continue to love seung and never to fall for love in reality, i don't want to get hurt even before knowing we cant be together. all i need to do is, do what i did 5 years ago~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

i'm not even his type, know what i meant?

please dont ask me anything,pleaseeeeee! Because is really hard for me to even write it down here.

So glad that im gonna have my getaway exactly 1 month from now!!!

Woah! THE SMURFS with Rowena, Joan, Xiumei, Shuan Teo and Kevin! I smurfs all of them!! wink wink~~~~~ Love that show to max and their song,... La lalalalalala~~~

alright smurfs you :)

needless to say

2011-08-28T22:39:00.001+08:00

Need to start work after this!!

I'm gonna stay in school till super late tomorrow and i hope it gonna be a productive one because Tuesday i will be working from 10 to 10~ So crazy and tiring but i got no choice! TT

From this project i really learnt alot of things and i felt that i'm still not good enough to be able to manage my time well, and i always need someone to guide me, that's because maybe i know is a group work and i tend to rely on someone. However, who is there to rely right now? There are only 2 heads working on these and we are all my ourselves, i'm tired of asking and trying.

You should stop wasting your parents' money and leave here for good.

Anyway, i'm really happy because Boyoung thank me for the stickers and asked me to hurry go over~ i can't wait to fly over... but there something i'm really worry... (shall not mention)

The stickers are nicely pasted on all the lunch box :)

(credit : cafe.daum.net/songsh92)

true

2011-08-27T02:43:00.001+08:00

(cr:tumblr)

2011-08-27T00:10:00.000+08:00

what are words.

2011-08-26T21:53:00.000+08:00

Just had a run with Chen xuan, Junjie and Angela in school today, this made me missed the day i represented my class to run for sport days and missed myself dancing on stage~ i lost all my stamina, pretty sad :(

I hope that our P2 will cope well from now on, because we had been changing ideas for the third time, i hope this will be the last, and even if so there is no time for us to change too~ haha!

5 more days to interim presentation day~ I really hope everything go well :)

*what are words if you really don't mean them when you say them?

what am i thinking?

2011-08-24T00:53:00.000+08:00

Take it or leave it.

2011-08-24T00:07:00.000+08:00

Today, not very happy, not very happy. Neutral.

I'm having a hard time, with something i don't wish to think about...but have to.

Why God gave us so many problems but didn't give us someone to help solve the problems?

so annoying~ Who can i turn to with the problems i'm facing right now? I bet no one will understand, because i don't :(

senior lab

2011-08-22T18:18:00.000+08:00

Doing project again in senior lab, ok better do if not someone beside me (JJ) naggggggggggg~~~~

LOL~~~

anyway the picture above taken by zoey! Row and Frankie having a good time but i'm there being an extra~ lol~~~~

i can fly

2011-08-22T02:08:00.005+08:00

(cr:tumblr)

I have been refreshing the same old thing for the hundredth times from 10pm to know...2am.

Maybe i will just head off to bed and not gonna bother anymore.

Saying that i'm not affected, that will be a joke/lie. I mean who wouldn't? But i don't blame others but myself, this made me learn how to be someone better, i'm learning it now, everyday :)

God, that is enough, you have pampered me too much, i know you did because i felt it.

Aside from all the above,

i just paid for my phone bill but as much as i don't want to waste money on this damn iphone again, my another bill came and this time... what? so horrible...

I just told Jose that i may need to loan money from her, she didn't agree neither did she reject, so meaning? haha. I hope everything goes on smoothly~

First thing first, i need to get rid of P2, i hate it so much that i want to fail it~ I went out to meet my girls to do work, ended up i didn't, today i went out to do my work with row,shaun, in the end also failed :(

tonight, i'm a sad kid. but tomorrow i will smile to see the sun :)

good night earthlings, mummy go sleep liao~

happy birthday CX:)

2011-08-21T04:48:00.001+08:00

Just got home not long after meeting Merlyn,Sharlene with Gera, swear we got lots of fun even tho half my my time i'm on twitter,whatsapp getting news about today concert and on my land hoping and mm will appear, no, unfortunately,... he didnt! Anyway Happy Birthday to CX :) ily!

My friend said i look like Mona Lisa(new genaration), ok actually i'm the one saying it but they all agreed! lol~~~

TT

2011-08-19T01:40:00.000+08:00

These days i'm feeling really reckless and discourage~ I'm tired of living... ugh TT

Then again, thank you to all my friends who kept me going and of course MM! Seriously if not for them i think i'm really mad! Go home and lock myself in the room then face the wall~ hmm! Today we headed out for some shopping at Bugis! Love them like crazy! No kidding :) muax muax~~

Now i'm worry for P2, i feel so suffocated. I don't know how far i can carry on :( I'm really sad.... I am..... because our first presentation to me was a disaster~ I didn't want to say out to anyone because i will hurt even bad inside~ sorry guys~

i need a better plan.

random

2011-08-18T03:23:00.000+08:00

Alvin did his hair cut in the studio, Zoey cutting for him!

She cut mine too^^ Help me save money! hurrhur! and the cutting skills...both thumbs up!^^

execution? LOL!!!!

i love this girl because she gave me a new life :)

Need to think back and see how much i have suffered to make me cry. Right now, i still think is a dream, when will i wake up? :(

i'm really tired today ~~ ok no, i'm tired almost every single day~ hmm~~~~~~~

good night/good morning~

so not me

2011-08-17T03:23:00.001+08:00

(cr : vantvaart)

Sometimes i wish i'm a boy or not give me a boyfriend, God.

It's 3:13am now and i got a presentation tomorrow, why aren't i sleeping yet? I couldn't sleep :( I'm so tired, my eyes are closing but i just can't sleep. Too many things running through my head~ Today i almost break down in school, thankfully, i didn't... because i don't want and i don't like people to see a weak side of me, never! i only cried once in my secondary school life, already felt so embarrassed, what's more when i'm in poly life? I'm so independent that i don't even need anyone to really care or love me, take my mum as one of the example, she never worry for me.

i'm missing someone, but i don't know who~ i really don't....

i know people around me are getting over the kpop fandom slowly, and i only just started. Seriously, so be it if you are like that, i just hate it when people make it sound like they never love kpop before. Like "wow lucky leh you girls" or "you all better go"... something along that line.

hmm~ you know? I'm sorry to all my friends in school that recently spazz too much about it, but i spazz for a reason okay, haha~ only for a while luh~

you know what? i'm spouting nonsense again at this late hour.. goodness :(

ughhhhh hate it when i'm behaving like this...

ok can

2011-08-16T01:59:00.000+08:00

I'm really tired... tired tired... i want to sleep~~~ can i sleep now? hmm~

so addicted to Rule the Sky!
i wish i got an iPad so i can play it in a bigger screen!*hint hint!*
LOL!

IKMW2011.

2011-08-14T03:07:00.000+08:00

13 August 2011!

This date.. i will never ever forget! I really appreciate that after so long...in fact it was just an exact of a month... You actually surprised me, totally... I was loss of words, i felt my hand having cold sweats and trembling so badly! I read this girl's post, she mentioned that she gave one "xxx" to you too, i was panicked, is there such similar thing on earth? Or rather, do we have similar mind? I realized... she said someone else was using it instead of you. When i read it, frankly speaking, i'm sad for her but ... I should be happy for myself and give myself a pat on my shoulder, because i had put in so so so much effort in everything i did for you. I believe i deserve at least this, and this is enough :) Thank you, really. You make me feel so much stronger!

I'm happy beyond words.

Nevertheless, thank you Shermaine and Zixi ! i love you both!

so goodbye~

2011-08-13T05:58:00.001+08:00

KTV just now with Merlyn and Gera in one room while Jose, Joy and all next room, daddy also came to join us later~ Now i'm awake at this timing.. 5:56am. Waiting for Mac Breakfast to arrive at Merlyn's house! Yup they are all playing mahjong, i'm like the DJ, playing music for them! lol~

okay mac is here!! hooray! ^^

11 11 11

2011-08-12T02:04:00.001+08:00

I want the one in the middle. yep im not asking it from anyone. i will get it by myself in future~

Anyway i just heard something in my room.... like some noise.... hmmm~~

ok... anyway... P2 killing me literally~ i dont have much to say because, if blogging and i'm still mentioning about this, i might as will kill myself right now?

I'm having this confused mind right now because my stickers can't be use :( Like im abit sad... no not abit....SUPER DUPER EXTREME ULTIMATELY SAD....!!! HAIZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ~~

speechless... today is not my day. everything went wrong...

Y

2011-08-11T00:06:00.001+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO THAT SPECIAL SOMEONE IN MY HEART^^

still young, me?

2011-08-08T22:10:00.001+08:00

hmm~ So happy that i went down just now to take a look at Gapi and talked to him together with Jamie :) hurhur!~ i bet he gonna remember 2 primadonnas highing about him while others for b1a4. Jamie's friends are spazzing with us too! that made it more fun! hurhur! I really think i can mix well with anyone around me, maybe because i'm an O blood yea?

Alrighty still no inspiration for my work! So gonna die soon because i dont want ended up being someone who didn't contribute in my group work!

right now, mosquitoes biting me for freee :/

-----

1:30AM

This thing is really making me worry and stress starting from today~ i have to worry the money i'm gonna spend on myself will end up going to the cd store, the time i'm gonna spend there shopping will end up queuing to get into anywhere. you know how stress i am right now? uhhhhh. I really hope this thing happen end of september so everything will go on smoothly, hopefully like what i expected. I need to buy at least like 30 of it to be able to be lucky and get in? goodness, i really wish my luck will be better this time round. i need to start doing all my fan all over again and make a good one so i can cheer from below. I hope i will not feel disappointed about anything that's going to happen there, because the pris there are really scary from what i heard. I hope i will meet good pris, one or two and they successfully bring me in, be it any music program because i really want to see. And i hope the company can help me out soon with my card, if not how? my primadonna card :( ughhhh~~~ see i'm really stresss!!!

just saying~

2011-08-08T01:24:00.000+08:00

(cr:tumblr)

I'm so bored right now! i have not been doing my work and my mind is empty! My heart is... empty too, so suddenly! TT i'm feeling a bit sad right now... i don't know who to tell to this type of thing :( haizzzzzz. forever like this ya?

1 2 3 4

2011-08-06T11:00:00.003+08:00

1 2 3 4

(not sure why i couldnt upload mv here TT)

This song like a sweet only!!^^

BIRTHDAYS!!!

2011-08-06T01:34:00.001+08:00

Goodness, what is wrong with July and August? So many babies born in these months!! These post have like 6 birthday girls leh!!! ZAI BO~~~~

Birthday celebrations for Rowena and Athirah few weeks ago~^^

ROW ROW ~~~

Athirah!~

Celebrated Angela's Birthday in school~

4 August~~

No no no the guy below is not Angela~ LOL! Not his birthday but he smile till like his birthday~ cannot imagine if it is his birthday! WAHAHAH!

My Gao jiejie :)

Awesome people at the Mac! weeeee , we were like small kids getting so hyped up and happy with just a Hello Kitty watch! See,... even Shaun Teo got one for himself!! haha!

So we did the star sign... you know like how we had one of those picture when we were young?

cutttteeeeeee^^

Headed off to meet my 12 girls-1 at MOF!! It's been forever since we can all gather together and have chitchatting and dinner together! Love them like mad women!! wo zen me zhe me xin fu~~

That's all for now!! im so freaking tired!! -_-

I just got back home and i need to wake up early to meet Twinny, Shanie and Jade to settle our things for October~~ Less than 2 month times... waaaa~~~~ 2 months later this time.... im away from lion city!!! WAHOOOO~~~

i love hearing your waves, i love seeing the sky,i love feeling wind,i love you, beach.

hurts.

20th

bored.

지독하게

left.

Aquarius.

Charms.

Severely

that story was left untold.

CNY

love it all afterall

PLAY!FTISLAND Concert in Malaysia! 2012

Fusionopolis

-

long journey~

drag

2012.

last.

:)

Merry Christmas ☃

12 days of Christmas.

.

porridge.

peck

dark.

friends.

...

who?

it's just me.

bought.

go.

...

xoxo

x

^^

hehe!~

tore.

...

why will i like you?

giraffe.

빼빼로데이~

my baby zo zo~

bye 3gs.

packed.

12R :)

Distance

rain.

keep believing.

(*_*0)

^^

Maritime.

Broke.

Easy way out.

Cheerz.

Like Birds

runnin' around leaving scars.

Cranky

Doggies~

3:38am

uh uh shiol

^^

never get enough

not ready

P2 over in 4 days time.

need her in life.

hope.

Bon Voyage~

Happy Mooncake Festival with Awesome People :)

souls

A sky full of lighters.

uh uh shiol

end here.

say goodbye.

somebody else.

let's smurf

not the type.

needless to say

true

what are words.

(_0)